Thursday, December 10, 2015

Corrected Corrected Position

One of the first things done in the clinic is to learn how to correct your body positioning so as to move in as straight an alignment as possible.  And then you are supposed to try to "live" in that new position, adjusting whenever you realize you have forgotten and sunk back into the old alignment. The thinking is that, over time, your body's muscles start to get used to it, with weak ones strengthening and overstretched ones moving back to where they should ideally operate. 

Now that it's been 2+ years, I would say that in general it is true. Your body does start to feel a bit more natural in a more aligned position, and the muscles start to get used to holding your body taller and straighter.  I certainly have had considerably more compliments, even from strangers! at how good my posture is, whether standing or sitting. 

However, this time round, I realize that my adjustment is not optimal. I'm not sure if it is because over time I have subconsciously gotten a bit lazy and do not work at it as much as I may have done at the beginning. And believe me it is hard work having to sit, stand, walk, bend, dance, eat - everything - in what feels like an exaggerated contraction with all muscles firing all the time! Maybe I have relaxed myself a bit more than I should have. Of course there is also Gravity and Time, two conditions I really can't do a lot about, but know that because of them I can't let myself off the hook because every step back means having to make two steps forward just to maintain position.

But I also think it is because of a recent class I have been taking. Always on the lookout for classes and teachers who may have something to add, I came upon a pilates teacher that has worked one-on-one with people, mostly teens, with scoliosis here in Vancouver. I took a class with her and she spent a lot of time working on my standing alignment.

The biggest lightbulb moment was her direction to place my hand on the prominent part of my back, my left lumbar 'hump', and as I straightened myself I was to press this prominence in and up and slightly to the right (centre). By actually moving that bit of my body while operating the underlying muscles, I could feel (and imagine) the difference more. Of course I also needed to slightly shift my hips to the left, my ribs to the right, connect my ribs to my abs while keeping my sacrum up so that I did not sink into my chest nor thrust it out (a tricky little manoeuvre that I am still trying to figure out), ensure my right hip was not too far forward, my core was firing so my butt didn't stick out too much, and all the while stretching up, up, up, as if the top of my head was being pulled by a string, trying to give as much space to my spine as possible without raising my eyeline and head.

It's quite a checklist of things to go through and it takes me awhile to complete the request to "stand up straight". But now that I have been doing this for a month or so, I can start to feel the lumbar muscles work a bit differently. And it helps to imagine what my back muscles are doing when my hand is on them and can feel them move. The real proof was here at the clinic as I add these further adjustments to my previous corrections. Although it takes me longer to get into the corrected position, it has been pretty favourably assessed, with only the odd little poke or prod given. And it made a substantial difference to the standing scan.

So, dear twisters, I guess my point is that there is always someone else who may have another way of doing things that works, or another piece of imagery to try in the quest for personal perfection (which is only possible in our heads of course, but still worth striving for). Also, nothing is static, which can be a little depressing to think about frankly, as it means that there is never one answer that works forever and I know I will always have to make new and more adjustments as I grow older and my body changes.

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Too Short for My Own Arms

I made a disconcerting discovery today.  A friend had bought some twine to use as a laundry line for an upcoming trip to Afghanistan (yes, Afghanistan...I have adventurous friends), and cut extra lengths for future trips (she travels a lot, but always has really clean clothes). She was measuring the lengths using her open arms, and I was curious how she knew exactly how much that measured, and how, when I asked that question she knew the exact answer. I tested her guesswork and found she was exactly right, to the centimetre!  My friend looked at me like I was crazy.

"Didn't you know that the breadth of your arms equals your height?"

I must have been away from school that day.  I totally did not know that.

We went around the room and tested it with her husband, with my husband, the cat.  Everyone, except me!

I seem to be freakishly short for my own arms. Well, not freakish, that is a wee bit of an exaggeration. But there was a considerable difference. Inches, even.  The question then popped up: Is it my height that is too short or my arms that are too long?

Standing back-to-back with my sister last summer, I do remember being quite shocked at how much I had apparently shrunk over the last few years, as we used to be the same height. And the only thing that has changed in those years is the advancement of my scoliosis. So, it seemed clear to me that it is a height thing and not an arms thing.

And that's a bit of a shock, that the change in my back is translating into such a fundamental characteristic of someone's person as their height.

My friends brought out a book and showed me a diagram I have seen many times but never really connected to on a personal level: Leonardo da Vinci's  "Vitruvian Man".
aka The Guy in The Circle

Therefore, the assumption is that my height loss could be estimated as my armspan minus my actual height.

I did a bit of research on a variety of studies (legitimate, peer-reviewed studies only!) that used 1 or more of 4 radiographic methods: Bjure, Kono, Stokes and Ylikoski (which sounds like the start of a joke: Four guys walk into a bar - a Swede, a Polynesian, an American and a Fin....) to see if it was possible to correctly calculate height loss due to scoliosis.  The studies I looked at included a various range 30 - 250 people with a variety of scoliosis types (lumbar, thoracic, cervical, etc.).

In general, the studies assumed that spinal height loss occurs only as a result of altered curvature, without alteration in disc height associated with an increase in scoliosis. Calculations based on the Cobb angle (which is two dimensional) produced inaccuracy, with suggestions that data considering trunk size could be added.  A longitudinal study was suggested as perhaps having advantages over these cross sectional studies, since any loss of discs' height occurring in progressive scoliosis could be taken into consideration.
 
In the end, all studies I looked at determined that there was no overall agreement between the four methods of calculation of the loss of body height associated with scoliosis.
 
However, my online quest on the topic also turned up a lot of discussion forums debating this issue, and agreeing that the generalization (that is the Vitruvian Man) only works as a rough estimate, and there are a lot of people who have naturally longer or shorter armspans by up to several inches. 
 
And of course everyone loses some height as they age. That's gravity for you. Always rushing up to greet you and ruining the party. Thanks a lot Isaac Newton (even though you have got awesome hair!)
aka The Guy With The Apple Landing on His Head
Another study (French) measured over 8,000 women over 60 and found they all overestimated their height by an inch, on average, and had lost about 2 inches from their tallest recalled height, just as a matter of age. The average person was estimated to lose ¼ to ½ inch every decade after age 40 or so, with women generally losing more than men (all those years lugging groceries home and carrying kids, grumble, grumble). People lose height because the discs between the vertebrae in the spine dehydrate and compress. The aging spine can also become more curved, and vertebrae can collapse  due to a loss of bone density, not just due to scoliosis. Losing muscle in the torso can also mean stooped posture. Even gradual flattening of the arches in the feet can make you slightly shorter.
 
As well, the greater the shrinkage, the greater the risk of hip and other fractures. Several studies were cited as having found that those over age 65 who lost at least 2 inches in the past 15 to 20 years were at signifi­cantly higher risk for hip fracture than those who shrank less.
 
Of course, that is largely out of anyone's control, as it's down to genetics, lifestyle, age living on this planet and how much bone you built when you were young.  Suggestions to help counteract the negative aspect of height loss include weight-bearing exercises, taking calcium and vitamin D, not smoking or binge drinking.  One (Belgian) study actually found that those who did moderate aerobic exercise throughout their lives shrank less than those who lived more sedentary lives.
 
So the reality for me is pretty clear - I have lost some height due to scoliosis and some height due to age.  But it also means my laundry line will be just that little longer!

Monday, December 7, 2015

ouch!

Day 1 and my body is sore, sore, sore!

The beginning went well. The clinic has expanded, and the basement now holds a good sized waiting room with two changing rooms, a washroom and the physiotherapists' kitchen and venting (no doubt) space. All the women I knew have left and been replaced, and one fellow also, with only two familiar guys remaining.  Paperwork, payment, then measurements.

New stuff there too. A brand new machine for measuring my back's topography as well as various other measurements that I sort of understand, but not really. Coronal imbalance? Surface rotation? Frontal projection?  Pelvic Obliquity? Blue dots, green and purple squiggles, yellow lines. The numbers did not seem to connect with the numbers taken with the previous system, so I was unable to compare then to now. I got basic explanations, but I've forgotten them already. I think I might have to have a conversation with Mr. Google when I get home.

But the main thing is that things did not really get worse, even after a year and a half of mixed adherence to my exercise program! There was only one measurement of minor concern, my hip was shifted more to the right than it should be. Pretty good considering. I was also praised for my general physical condition, especially for my core strength (thank you pilates!), although my lung functions were noticeably less than stellar.  I was fighting a bit of a cough, so I was not terribly surprised.  Every time I blew hard into the tube, I would get so much air out and then fall into a coughing fit. 

But all things considered, it was good news.

I was sent up to join the class for awhile, which was in its 2nd of 4 weeks, and was almost entirely made up of teens.  There were 4 adults in a class of 12, including me. It seems that this is not uncommon in December, with holidays approaching and so less time taken off school for the little darlings.  We talked about an exercise they had just learned, the weird one with all the props, and thankfully one I hadn't had on my menu plan. I was reminded all over again about how to set up and then got into it, following along at everyone else's speed.

Then it got hard.  I was given a list of specific exercises and stretches, and pushed along to work through them as the others were still learning most of them.  Every once in a while, I was given an extra element to add, to make it more challenging.  I did extra sets.  And the hours ticked along. 

After lunch I had my one on one time with the head guy, who is very good, but not at all lenient to a woman of a certain age such as me.  In between exercises he would do some deep tissue massage. 

If you hit on the word "massage" and thought I was having a lovely time there relaxing, you hit on the wrong word. "deep" is more what is was like and "tissue" was what I needed to wipe the tears of pain away.  I kid you not!  I have a pretty high pain threshold too, but my goodness, some of those muscles were just screaming with anger.  Obviously they were way more tight than I thought they were, and sometimes it was so much I would bark out a laugh and shift out of the way to get some relief from the ridiculousness of it. 

The one week boot camp is an hour longer each day than the usual course, so I had 8 solid hours a day, with an hour for lunch in between.  By the end of the day I was sore and it felt like all the bones had been removed from my body.  I trudged off to my friend's house, who was kindly letting me stay, and we polished off a bottle of rioja while describing our daylight hours. That helped, but a deep, hot bath, a firm bed and two ibuprophen would help even more.

Back in the Saddle Again

After 18 months of interruptions to my prescribed back exercise plan, it is time to reboot. 

To recap: February 2014 I fell down my stairs. Result: bursitis on my left hip and several months off from any exercise requiring a lot of hip action.

November 2014 I lifted something badly and hurt my right rotator cuff. Result: no overhead lifting of my right arm and very little loading on that shoulder.

May 2015 I was powerwalking and hit uneven pavement. I was walking so fast I couldn't stop myself from hitting the ground, but my right arm valiantly took the blow. Result: ridiculously stubborn arm sprain that only recently allowed me to grip, move and load the arm.

Okay now, stop your smirking! 

For those of you who do not know me, I must stress how unlike me it is to have such injuries - to fall or pull or lift wrong or hit anything.

And for those who do know me, well, you have even less reason to smirk as you know this is not representative of my physical movement through the world. 

I don't know why these things all happened with such quick succession.  Could it be my scoliosis is impacting my balance even more than usual?  Or is my mind so preoccupied with brilliance that I am less aware of the pitfalls in my paths?  Or am I at an age now when I just don't bounce back like I may have done before?  Whatever the reason or reasons, I am suitably chastened and must constantly remind myself to keep mindful of my mind/body correlation. When I go down the stairs I must focus on the fact that I am going down stairs. When I walk over a slippery or bumpy surface I must pay attention to the undulations and conditions beneath my feet. When I lift or carry anything I must use my body correctly.  Sounds obvious, but which of us do any of these in a hurry, or while talking to someone else or checking a text?  I rest my case.

So, now I am well and strong and must get back into the routine of back exercises that has been so haphazardly kept.  You can imagine how pleased I was to find that the Scoliosis SOS clinic in London now provides 1 week refreshers (reboot camp I think of it as!) instead of just the 3 hour assessments to those of us who have completed the full 4 week course.  So I postponed my trip until I could afford the week there, and have now arrived in London in the lovely season of wet and mud, that is to say, early December. 

Actually I am incredibly curious to know just what my initial scan will reveal. Even though I have not followed my back exercise routine a lot, I have been very active. I take pilates classes twice a week. Yoga once a week. Swimming once a week. Swing dancing once a week. Walking an hour or so three times a week and very often another walk of 2 or more hours. Gardening. Stretching. And physio exercises for my hip and my arm and my shoulder several times a week. No sluffing off here! So would my curvature be the same as it was 18 months ago? Or would it be worse? I can't imagine it would be better. But I have lost a little extra weight now that I am slowly coming off the nerve pain medication (which added weight), so who knows? If nothing else it might be a good indication of just how valuable these scoliosis-specific exercises are after all, and whether improvement is even to be hoped for.

So, I am back in London, drinking a quick coffee at one of the little places I used to go to when I did the clinic in May, 2013.  Que sera, sera!

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Thermal Bath 4: Gellert

Oh yes, I do like this one. It is one of the newer ones, opening (with the Gellert Hotel) in 1918, although the thermal spring on which it is built was well known by the Knights of St John (by all accounts an extremely clean order of men!) in the 13th century.  The décor is art nouveau splendour, with stained glass and colourful tiling throughout. It was damaged in the second world war (it was actually operating during the war!), but restored shortly after, and outdoor pools were added quite a bit later.
Outdoor wave pool in summer


Gellert Hotel

I remember having come here in 2004, just before Hungary joined the European Union, and it was a little more austere. There were women only days and men only days, women only pools and men only pools, and these were all a little faded glamour. The massage and treatment cubicles are tasteful and private (not like the stainless steel tables laid out in rows in one big room like a synchronized surgical unit that I have the good fortune to deal with).

As elsewhere, you get your Dick Tracy wristband (here it worked seamlessly but it might just be because I know the drill now) and use either a locker or a tiny change cabin. Again, as for the others, the water contains The water contains calcium, magnesium, hydrocarbonate, alkalis, chloride, sulfate and fluoride and serves to treat degenerative joint illnesses, spine problems, chronic and sub-acute joint inflammations, vertebral disk problems, neuralgia, vasoconstriction and circulatory disturbances, asthmas and chronic bronchitis. It's like reading my autobiography of ailments!

The mosaic floors and walls of the main entrance, hallways and surrounding the pools, were made by the famous Zsolnay factory, which I must admit I had never heard of, but further research indicates that yes, indeedy, it is a very famous factory indeed. It started to produce stoneware and other ceramics in 1853, but the son of the founder took it to the world by exhibiting at many world, including Paris in 1878, where the company won a Grand Prix (and where the newly completed head of the Statue of Liberty was also exhibited).  By 1914, Zsolnay was the largest company in the Austro-Hungarian Empire, although it was resigned to making insulators during the first world war, and after, during the Serbian occupation. The name changed along the way but changed back in 1982 when times started to get better. Still a vital concern, the company signed a huge contract with IKEA in 2008 to supply a whopping 5,000 tonnes of ceramics every year!

The Gellert baths are quite pricey, so it's good to have enough time to thoroughly enjoy them. And be honest. Can you look at these photos and not want to go there??
tile floor in the entrance hall




entrance hall




stained glass ceiling











Friday, November 27, 2015

Thermal Bath 3: Lukács

I wanted to try the Lukács thermal bath because it is less well known by tourists, and is particularly popular with locals.  It geothermal waters were used by the Knights of St. John, a Christian military order dedicated to caring for the sick, in the 12th Century. They were followed by the Knights Hospitallers, and the Rhodos and the Maltese Knights, who built baths next to their monasteries. The bath operated through the time of the Turks, in the 16th Century, but then the energy of the springs was used primarily to produce gunpowder and for grinding wheat.

The first spa hotel and wellness centre was built in the 1880’s, with a drinking cure hall (the "pump room") added in 1937, and a daytime hospital established in 1979 (the National Institute of Rheumatology and Physiotherapy) to treat locomotive diseases and act as a physiotherapy centre.

In 1999, the two open-air pools were modernised, and the so-called mud-pond, hardly used before, was replaced by what is endearing called the fancy pool, equipped with a river current, effervescence, neck shower, water beam back massage hidden in the seat banks, whirlpool, geysers, and effervescent bed. This is built completely surrounded by the walls of the hospital, serving as a liquid courtyard.


The primary challenge of the Lukács is to actually find the entrance.  It's not far from the Buda side of the Margit bridge, across a bit of parkland and into a maze of yellow buildings. the pump room is easy to find, and its strong suphur smell hits you as you go inside to ask the attendant where the heck the pools are. Following a winding path to the end, one enters a modest door and sees a payment kiosk.

That's the primary challenge, meaning that's just the first challenge.

Once inside I followed various hallways and followed helpful hand directions to find the locker room, but no locker worked with my plastic wrist band (identical to the one at Rudas except for its colours). Ah, I have a cabin, ok, where is that? More hallways, past a pool, past more pools, and then I am directed to cabin 6. Still, the band doesn't work. Guided to another section where there is another cabin 6. ??? Oh, yeah, it gets better. There are at least two more cabin 6s dotted throughout the complex. By this time I have used up 20 minutes of my two hour time and haven't got my skivvies off. 

Finally, finally, I am in and changed and have a rented towel (an exorbitant amount that I am told will mostly be returned upon departure).

Tertiary challenge was finding out where to start. The two outdoor swimming pools looked lovely but are swimming pool temperature, and it is freezing outside and starting to get dark. But I do go into the Fancy Pool - I mean who can resist not going into the Fancy Pool?  It's not hot but it is warm enough to enjoy spinning along the circular water river with other adults who are smiling like children. Trying to swim against the current is a good workout, as long as you are happy enough to not make any forward headway. There are shallow sunbathing shelves with jets under and over. But the best was just to sit neck deep and look around at the lovely golden building encircling the pool. On Saturday nights there are bath parties with DJ'd music and light shows which I can imagine get pretty raucous, and which has made it more well known and popular with those less medicinally affiliated.

Getting a little chilled, I moved into the older parts, the Turkish pools that had steps, or tiled seats in them and warmer temperatures.  There is a modern cold plunge pool of course,
and saunas and steam rooms as well, but the most intriguing pool to me was the Weight Bath, built for stretching the back and treating spinal injuries and "deformities". Much as I don't really consider my scoliosis a 'deformity' I suppose speaking strictly anatomically it is, so I was intrigued at the narrow deep pool with a sort of shoulder grip so that one can hang straight down in the water.  If I used this every day I might get my lost 2 inches of height back. Alas, it is a one time affair so I channeled a bit of appreciation for it.

As one might expect from a hospital that provided prescriptions to the various treatments, it is accessible to the disabled. The list of therapies identified for its use are:
  • traumatic aftercare
  • aftercare following bone or joint operation
  • the inactive stages of chronic, inflammatory locomotor disorders (eg. rheumatoid arthritis, articular diseases, Bechterew-disease)
  • chronic neuritis
  • nervous pains
  • the inactive stages of chronic degenerative bone and joint diseases
  • osteoporosis (calcium deficiency of the bones)
  • degenerative joint diseases
  • spinal deformity
  • discus hernia
  • neuralgia
  • post-accident rehabilitation
The springs themselves are rich in (deep breath here) calcium hydrogencarbonate and calcium hydrogensulfite, magnesium hydrogencarbonate and magnesium hydrogensulfite, choride, sodium and fluoride ions.

I had such a good time that I did not get my towel deposit ba
ck as I was 15 minutes past my ticket time, which of course I blame wholeheartedly on the hunt for the correct and illusive cabin number 6.

good clean fun

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Thermal Bath 2: Széchenyi

The plan was to go to one of the few baths on the Pest side, and one of the largest in Europe, as well as one of the newest in Hungary, being "only" just over 100 years old, although it has been added to several times since it was built in 1913. It is situated in the expanse of City Park, which is able to contain its 18 pools and 10 saunas and steam rooms. Named after a politician, statesman, theorist and writer, who presumably bathed as well, Széchenyi baths are truly spectacular.

Or at least, I think they are. I don't know exactly because on my way towards City Park I stumbled upon a large Christmas market with wonderful crafts and foods, mulled wine and the best grog I've ever had (with freshly muddled ginger and a slice of lime). It was cold and the coin toss between warm lights and hot drinks won out over bathing in the outdoors.


Next time, Széchenyi, you are mine!

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Thermal Bath 1: Rudas


Day 1 of 4: Rudas Thermal Bath
Under Gellert Hill lies the Rudas thermal bath, first built in 1550, during the time of the Turkish occupation. This old part has an octagonal pool under a traditional dome.

At the end of the 19th century, a therapeutic swimming facility and a sauna was added. There is also a newer 'wellness section', with a pool fed by the water spring Juventus, a cold water immersion pool, an outdoor rooftop pool and a hot water pool.
the spread of Rudas bath,
with the rooftop pool on the left
and the original Turkish pool roof on the right

small rooftop pool under the dome

Now let's get one thing straight. Neither I nor my spine do cold water plunge pools (i.e., anything under 20 degrees C) so just cross that off your list of expectations.  I can be persuaded to sit in an outdoor pool, but not in the dark of a winter day on the roof of a riverside building.

The waters have been touted as "slightly radioactive" and I refuse to inquire further as to what exactly that means. Its minerals include sulphate, calcium, magnesium, bicarbonate and fluoride ion, and this is apparently good for vertebral disks, lack on calcium in the bones and the usual joint challenges.  Bring it, Rudas.

First is negotiating the costs and mechanics of taking the waters. It's possible to rent a bath sheet, which is really a single bed sheet. One is required to wear a bathing cap, men too! and it's not a bad idea to have flip flops. When you pay, you receive a plastic wrist apparatus, which looks like a child's play watch with no water face. This is to be held next to an entrance gate, where a light turns from red to green to let you through. It also activates the lock on a locker in the co-ed change room, which has little closets for changing modestly.

the old changing cabins
Then along and up stairs to a lovely swimming pool, but I was not here to swim. I carried on to the wellness centre, a modern room, with two big pools of the same temperature for some reason, spontaneous jets and spouts, and soft lighting. At one end was the cold plunge pool and a skoocum hot pool. Clean, roomy, bright. Windows look out onto the street which had the added bonus of appearing a big smug to the wrapped up commuters on the bus as it stopped at the red light.  A restaurant and rooftop pool were up a spiral stairway, perhaps a stairway to Heaven but I was not ready to make that journey yet.

A delightful experience all in all, although the strangest thing happened once dressed. It must be the particular mix of minerals in the baths that caused it. My right big toe, which had been broken when I was about 12 years old, was painful right along the break line for quite a while afterwards.  I wonder if others who have suffered breaks in places that are possible to heal properly have felt the same line of pain.  I may have to investigate further.

Waterbabying in Buda

I almost got to waterbaby in Pest as well but got a bit sidetracked by a Christmas market and a big glass of mulled wine.

Yes, I have decided that waterbaby can be a verb.

I waterbaby
You waterbaby
He/She waterbabies
We waterbaby, etc.

Verbs generally denote action of course, and setting out to explore the therapeutic value of thermal baths in Hungary's largest city, in winter, requires effort being made: physically and intellectually if not linguistically.

As everyone's favourite information source, Wikipedia, indicates: "A thermal bath is a warm body of water. It is often referred to as a spa, which is traditionally used to mean a place where the water is believed to have special health-giving properties." The therapy part comes from spending time in thermal baths as part of one's regular medical and wellness practice, and doctors in Hungary often prescribe spa water treatments to their patients, young and old.

Budapest is not the only place in Hungary with thermal baths, but there are a lot of them dotted along the Danube dividing Buda and Pest. Most of these are along the Buda shore, which makes sense as the limestone rises up in hills and benchs, so that layers of hot mineral waters lie in layers of rock. The friends, Romans and countrymen settled in the area in part because of these hot springs, and there are still ruins from this period to be found here.

The new era was not so new to us, but some of the baths that were built during this time are incredibly still in use despite their centuries, when the Ottoman Empire stretched up this far north.  Their 16th century oval roofs and octagonal pools are striking and recognizable to anyone who has spent time in Turkey. The next great era of thermal baths was the late 19th century, with grand palace-like halls over and around enormous pools, indoors and outdoors, for the hordes.

For me, it was an opportunity to: a) explore a key part of Hungary's cultural practice; b) get warm in a frosty cold Budapest in winter; and c) see whether or not there was anything in the claims of medicinal value placed on the waters for degenerative bone conditions and chronic joint inflammations, among other things.  My curvy little spine was in for a treat!

4 days: 1 spa a day; among several to choose from.


Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Roadtripping

The prospect of spending hours at a time in a car is unsettling for those of us with tricky backs.  So in advance of a roadtrip, some preparation is in order:

1. A good back cushion.  I have a great little self-inflating cushion that can be placed in just the right spot of the back that needs it.  It rolls up into a thin tube so is great for travelling.  I bought it at "Relax the Back" and comes in several colours.  I prefer the orange because it is less likely to be unnoticed and thus lost.  Mind you, I did lose one, on a West Jet flight.  But only one, and that's in several years.



2. Water.  Water lubricates and cleanses, as well as hydrates, so I always keep a full bottle at hand in my car's cup holder.  The key is to remember to take sips regularly.  Take a sip every 25km or after each tune or whenever you see a yellow car.  Whatever works.

3. Comfortable shoes.  What?  Why do you need comfortable shoes driving a car you ask?  Even when sitting and pressing on a gas pedal (I answer) having a supported, level foot is optimal as opposed to heels or flat sandals or flips flops.  Toe spacers optional.

4. A rest plan.  I intend to take a break from driving at least every two hours.  And not to just go and have a coffee in a cafe, but to walk around or lie down in the grass.  The best is to lie down and rest your legs, from the knees down, on a bench or even on the front seat of your car. This will take the pressure off your spine and allow gravity to give your disks a little space.

5. Distraction. But only the right kind of course! No texting or checking facebook or rifling in bags on the floor or anything else that takes your focus away from the action of being a responsible driver.  But a bit of emotional distraction is good. If you have a driving companion the obvious one would be a lovely conversation.  If you are alone, or your driving companion isn't much of a talker, I like having tunes on in the car, and a variety of tunes: pop, rock, classical, instrumental, choral, jazz, and swing, but that's just me. Whatever floats your boat is the business I say. Talking books can be good too. Whatever will add to the enjoyment of the drive and provide a distraction from the mundane aspects of driving, especially when stuck in traffic and moving at a snail's pace. That only makes you more aware of any stiffness or pain.  I especially like to sing the good bits really loud and freak out my neighbours in the HOV lane.  Well, that might amuse and distract them too.  You're welcome.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Medication Machete

I hate taking drugs.  Especially if they cause brain or body changes.  Of course if the alternative is pain, real pain, then bring them on!  Particularly nerve pain, a nasty little machination between brain and nerve that cannot be escaped no matter what you do.  Not even sleep, because sleep is notoriously difficult when experiencing nerve pain.

But the one cool thing about nerve medication is that it is designed to break up that little negative conversation, so that although the nerve is still being trapped and agitated, the brain no longer considers it news. Ho hum it says, I've heard it all before, no biggie.  And then, the theory goes, it should be possible to slowly extricate yourself from the nerve drugs.

As I have been dealing with a cocktail of three different medications with the resulting weight gain, mental fog and shaky hands, I was more than ready last October to begin that slow decline to drug free existence again.  And less financial cost to be honest as well!

Under my doctor's regular assessment I began with Nortriptyline, the one with the most pronounced physical and mental effects. Down to a half dose, then a quarter, then, 6 months later, gone completely.  Next, it was Lyrica's turn.  Even though there is now a generic and so much less expensive alternative Pregabalin, it is still a drug so out it goes. Down to a half dose, then a quarter and now an eighth and so far so good.  No nerve pain twinges. No loss of sleep. No anxiety or depression.  Everything is happy, happy.

But I have learned to be a good patient and that means being patient.  I will live with the eighth dose for another month or so, then drop it entirely, if all goes well, by October, one year since this whole drug decline started.  Look out Cymbalta, your days are numbered!

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Getting my cuff rotated

The rotator cuff is a group of muscles and tendons that surround the shoulder joint. Ok, because you asked, the four muscles involved are called: supraspinatus, infraspinatus, subscapularis, and teres minor (why is it the last one of a series is always named something that looks completely different than the others?)

The rotator cuff muscles work as a unit. They help to stabilise the shoulder joint and also help with shoulder joint movement. These things seem to come in packages of four, as there are also four tendons of the rotator cuff muscles that join together to form one larger tendon, called the rotator cuff tendon (not a very imaginative name if you ask me). This tendon attaches to the head of the bony surface at the top of the upper arm bone, which is called quite sarcastically the humerus. The rotator cuff tendon passes through a space underneath the acromion of the scapula, called the subacromial space (oh come on, was it trainee day at the naming department????).

The main symptoms of rotator cuff injury are sudden pain and painful movement of the shoulder. Pain is worst when you use your arm for activities above your shoulder level. That makes sense to me as getting clothes on and off and blow drying my hair is torture. Pain may also affect sleep, especially  when you sleep on the injured side. Thankfully I sleep on the other side (thanks to left hip bursitis), and my pain is along the bottom of my upper arm. Um, you know where I mean!

Rotator cuff injuries occur most often in those who repeatedly perform overhead motions in their jobs or sports. Examples include painters, carpenters, and people who play baseball or tennis. It can also develop after lifting or pulling something awkwardly, or reaching to get something heavy off a top shelf. Using your arm to break a fall or falling on your arm can do it.  Some people develop bone spurs, an overgrowth of bone, on the top of the shoulder blade that protrudes over the rotator cuff.  Repetitive stress of any kind can cause inflammation and eventual tearing. that doesn't sound to good, and it's not, as it can cause irritation and damage.

The risk of rotator cuff injury also increases with age. 

It's common to recover from a rotator cuff injury with physical therapy exercises that improve flexibility and strength of the muscles surrounding the shoulder joint. Most people exercise the front muscles of the chest, shoulder and upper arm, but it is equally important to strengthen the muscles in the back of the shoulder and around the shoulder blade to optimize shoulder muscle balance.  Severe rotator cuff injuries, involving complete tears of the muscle or tendon, may require surgical repair. Other treatments include: rest, heat or cold depending on stiffness (heat) or inflammation (cold), medicines (ibuprophen for example), ultrasound, massage, and acupuncture.  Cortisone injection is another option, but that's a pretty last resort, before surgery.
 
The problem is the potential for what's called frozen shoulder syndrome, when shoulder movements become painful, stiff and reduced, sometimes completely 'frozen', perhaps due to scar tissue formed in the shoulder.  It most commonly occurs in people aged between 40 and 65 years. It is more common in women. It is more common than average in people who have diabetes and some other conditions, including overactive thyroid disease.  Check, check, no (thankfully). Although either shoulder can be affected it is most commonly the non-dominant shoulder - that is, the left shoulder in a right-handed person.  Interesting.  I wonder if it's because the muscles in the non-dominant shoulder might be a bit weaker and thus more easily injured. One thing it is not is connected in any way with arthritis and no other joints are affected.  Without treatment, symptoms usually go away, but this may take up to 2-3 years!  Yikes, I can't wait that long!

So I am visiting a physiotherapist who performs massage, acupuncture and ultrasound as needed.  I have a few exercises that get tweaked every two weeks or so, and I ice the shoulder after I exercise.  I also take ibuprophen when it is sore, but not on an empty stomach as ibuprophen can cause stomach pain in some people.  I am also having to modify my pilates and yoga classes so that I don't overdo arm and shoulder work, and I have left off swimming for the time being, focussing on walking and biking instead.  It's a slow, painful, frustrating business, but I am seeing modest improvement.

When One Door Closes.....

......you sometimes get smacked in the face.

Just when my hip bursitis was beginning to calm down, I got an ache in my upper left arm.  Putting clothes on over my head was so painful I was wearing everything I had with buttons and zips. That's when I realized I'm not really a cardigan kind of girl.  I only had one shirt and 2 sweaters, and it is winter, so I got pretty bored of my wardrobe before I decided to do something about it.

Hello doctor.  Hello physiotherapist.  Yes, I thought I'd seen the last of you, too.  No offence.  Non taken.

Looks like I did something to my rotator cuff.  And a funny thing about that is - well not really so funny - but I can do practically none of my scoliosis exercises with a rotator cuff injury.  I can't hang, or stretch with my arms overhead, even hanging down.  I can't pull with my arms out, and I certainly can't stretch pecs. 

So I get a new selection of exercises designed to strengthen the upper part my shoulder blades.  Seems my lower blades are extremely strong, from all the hanging and pressing, etc. Interesting. so yet again my scoliosis is impacting on my health and fitness. I can actually feel my back curve is going back to where it was, my hump is a bit larger and when I lie on the ground with my knees bent, I can't feel the floor with one side of my lower back. I never thought I was making much progress with my exercises, but now I know I was.  And I hope it won't take too long to get back there!

Christmas has not helped.  I feel like a fat pig, not having walked much, pilates and yoga classes shut down for a few weeks over the holiday, no swimming because my days and nights are filled with other things. And I am eating, eating, eating.  I wasn't too bad up until Christmas but I have experienced virtually no self-discipline since.  So as soon as my Dad's 80th birthday celebrations are over and my sister leaves town taking all my left-over chocolate and cheezies with her, my life will get back on track.  And hopefully by then, this rotator cuff thing with be better and I can hang again.

Friday, November 28, 2014

the lats get all the fun

This is another of the exercises I was given as part of my prescribed treatment at London, UK. Scoliosis SOS clinic.  Of course not everyone received this exercise and those that did were given various modifications according to their curves, but what was common was a good ol' lateral muscle workout on an unstable foundation.

First, a wee primer on the whys and wherefores of that particular muscle group.

The latin name latissimi dorsi is commonly known to its friends as the "lats".  Favoured by body builders, the name can be translated as "the biggest muscle in the back" (or, when it is sore, as "the biggest pain in the back", but I digress)

Here is a description of what the lats do by Wikipedia:
The latissimus dorsi is responsible for extension, adduction, transverse extension also known as horizontal abduction, flexion from an extended position, and (medial) internal rotation of the shoulder joint. It also has a synergistic role in extension and lateral flexion of the lumbar spine.

And here is a description of its function by www.bodybuilding.com:
The Latissimus Dorsi is a large "fan-like" muscle that covers those dozens of muscle that I mentioned earlier, it is therefore called, superficial. Its place of origin, or where it starts, begins at the middle of the back at the vertebrae T5-T7, the lower three ribs of the rib cage, the iliac crest (the hip), and the inferior angle of the scapula. That's a big muscle! And the whole thing runs to one single spot.

And yet another description by NYU's Langone Spine Center:
Flexion of the spine is defined as movement that produces forward bending, such as bringing the chin toward the chest or bending forward at the waist as if to pick up an object....Trunk muscles (latissimus dorsi) also participate in flexion of the vertebral column, shoulder or head movements, or arm movement. (These) trunk muscles, unlike the abdominals, attach to the spine.

Did you find that the explanations got clearer and easier to understand? Me too!  For once, Wikipedia confused the heck out of me.  But all three descriptions (and thousands more) were backed up with consistent visuals (even if artistically skewed towards specific demographics):




The Scoliosis SOS clinic talked a lot about lats, but so does my pilates teacher who says they need one of the largest percentages of work given the tasks they are expected to do, and for those with scoliosis their work is that much harder.

So the exercise I was given was all about the lats. In fact, nothing else much moves, except what is generated by the lats.

The work is more valuable when carried out on an unstable foundation (no, I do not mean my deranged childhood years!), as they have to work that much harder. In this case, that unstable surface takes the form of a large exercise ball, on which I sit.  In my case, I also have a beanbag placed under my left butt cheek (see that cute little thing in the photo?), so that my two hips are more even in elevation off the floor. I must also, of course, sit in my corrected position, with my rib cage lifted up and to the right. My knees are also bent at a 90 degree angle, with my heels directly under my knees, which means I end up with my shins pressed against the bars.  It took me a few days and many shin bruises (I am a slow learner!) to figure out that a small mat over the bars might not be such a bad idea!
In front, I hold the ends of two therabands that have been fastened to the gym bars at roughly waist height. My arms are held at a 90 degree angle, my chin is tucked, and the back of my head is stretched up as if someone was pulling a string attached to it.  Then I squeeze my lats together, trying to draw my should blades together. In so doing my arms move back and I hold the position for a slow count of 6 before releasing them back to the start point.  By the end of a set of 12 I can sure feel my back!  (A good counter stretch in between sets is the cat.)  Then I repeat for a total of 3 sets.  After which I am so aware of my lats that I feel I must go out and have a latte!








Tuesday, November 11, 2014

scoliosis and pregnacy

I love reading the New Yorker magazine. There's always at least one article of interest each edition, and the writing is so good.  The only thing I do not like about it is its published frequency.  Every week!  Way too much pressure to finish one before another arrives on the doorstep!  I get my mother's cast offs and that way do not feel rushed.  The negative of this is that sometimes it takes me so long to get to them that I am reading a February edition in October.  Small price to pay I say.

Just this afternoon I was catching up and reading an old copy (only 6 weeks old - practically up to date!) that included an article by and about a woman who never really wanted to be a mother and wrestled with that.  Some of what she said resonated with me and it made me quite sad.  Not drink an entire bottle of merlot sad, but pensive. 

When my scoliosis was first detected I was 19 and it was deemed either too late or too early to do anything about it.  The specialist who confirmed it had just two things to say to me: be active, and you might have a hard time giving birth as it is unlikely you will be able to receive an epidural.

At 19 and a dancer I was already on board with advice #1 and advice #2 just seemed so far into the future to worry about.

As it turned out I married at 33: "late in life", and becoming a mother, which I had always assumed would take place several times, became high on the "to do" list.  But it didn't happen.  Two years later I went through a barrage of tests, and the only thing that came of it was "you have scoliosis" (duh), "you have a lot of endometrial scarring" and "your uterus is heart-shaped".  Whaaat?  There it was, drawn on a scratty piece of paper by the doctor just after a laparoscopy, drawn for me as I came out of unconsciousness and was trying very hard to look like I had all my senses.

What do I make of that?  There is some evidence that endometriosis impacts the ability to become pregnant.  But it's not absolutely prohibitive.  Same thing with a heart shaped uterus, which is rarer, but not impossible.  And despite what many people who do not have scoliosis say, it in no way impacts conception.  I know quite a few people who have both scoliosis and children, although they did confirm the fact that giving birth is not always so easy.  Many have had caesarians, and it's not because they are "too posh to push".

We determined to do everything modern science allows, at least once, as most things cost many thousands of dollars.  In vitro fertilization, where multiple eggs are induced, harvested, allowed to mingle with husband's sperm in a petrie dish, and then re-introduced into the maternal body.  Nope.  Intra-cytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI), a brand new procedure that did all of the above except that one specific sperm was chosen per egg (strong swimmers with everything intact).  Uh-uh.  Donor insemination, whereby someone else's sperm is injected.  We had quite a bit of fun going through the anonymous but descriptive file and eventually chose someone who liked to dance and to cook and who shared our basic colouring.  Nada.  6 times nada. 

There were other things, but the bottom line is I will never find out if I can or cannot take an epidural.  Why am I telling you all of this?  As I had been told delivery is really the only major concern with pregnancy and scoliosis, I wasn't really prepared for the emotional roller coaster of just trying to get pregnant.  No one was able to figure it out as none of the separate ingredients were detrimental, but collectively they seemed to be.  So I am a happy aunt and godmother and mentor and influence.  My marriage is rock solid.  I have been able to do things I wouldn't otherwise have been able to do and anytime someone complains of motherhood and expenses envy for my life I say "Snap!"

But what was pregnancy like for those others with curves who could conceive children?  What did they experience?

I asked around and ended up getting about as many answers as curves.  Medically speaking, there is little information in the literature on the impact of scoliosis on male or female fertility. There is also no correlation between the progression of one's curves and her age at first pregnancy. Pain was cited as a limitation on sexual practice, which produced some negative effects on relationships. With a bit of education on different sexual positions that lessen pain, and some empathy to ease embarrassment during unclothed intimacy, there really should be no problem with conception.

There are a few issues around pregnancy. A few of the women I talked to had much more back pain in pregnancy, but then some did not notice any more pain than usual. One woman said her curve grew noticeably worse during pregnancy and she is quite worried about the idea of having a second child. For those who had rods in their backs, it was difficult to push at the birth, because getting into a sit-up position was particularly hard to do.  Two of these had to be given oxygen as their lungs were compressed with the curvature and the baby pressing on them.  Several of the women were recommended to stop at two children, given the toll taken on the back.  The one I spoke to who had more than two children regretted it as her curvature is considerably worse as is the pain.

One young woman was recommended to have the fusion surgery but was so keen to have babies that she got pregnant and had major sciatica, spasms, and was almost bed-ridden with pain before having a premature baby. She then had the surgery (worse than giving birth was her comment) but has since had baby #2 with no real complications.

I was intrigued to hear the (second hand) thoughts of a chiropractor who adjusts infants and newborns.  She said that being pulled from the birth canal can cause the babies to experience subluxations in their flexible spines, and scoliosis further down the road.  !!!  That theory might have to be a separate blog post!

A read a research paper finding that scoliosis can increase pregnancy risk as the uterus expands, further impeding the natural upward displacement of the diaphragm and reducing vital capacity and residual volumes. It's difficult for these women's bodies to find room at the inn due to skeletal narrowing, particularly in the thoracic cavity. Breathing is often harder and may require ventilatory support.

A genetic disorder called EDS (Ehlers–Danlos syndrome) cropped up in the paper as relevant.  EDS is a defect in the production of collagen, or of those protein that interact with collagen. The collagen in connective tissue (arteries, skin, intestines and the uterus) helps tissues resist deformation, and so is important for physical strength of skin, joints, muscles, ligaments, blood vessels and visceral organs; abnormal collagen renders these structures more elastic.  Pregnant women with both scoliosis and EDS (severe) might find risks related to uterine hemorrhages/rupture, miscarriage, and premature deliveries due to cervical incompetence.  Depending on the degree of scoliosis (referred in the paper as "spinal deformity" - thank you for making me feel even worse), c-sections are generally prescribed to avoid shifting the body's centre of gravity during birth, and increased joint discomfort.

For those who have EDS-associated scoliosis, it was recommended to take combined oral contraceptives for their added estrogen benefit for EDS-related osteoporosis. Severe EDS and limited mobility due to scoliosis runs the risk of thromboembosis. Caution was give to the teen female population with this as they are establishing bone mass.

Actually the thing that came up with each mother without exception was that the back pain and deepening curvatures of their scoliosis became worse with the early years of motherhood: bending down awkwardly, picking up young children, twisting and carrying things beyond comfort.  Needed refusions are not unusual, and neither are considerable amounts of medication.  One of them said that quite frankly she wished she had adopted a puppy!




Sunday, November 9, 2014

Breathing is harder than you think

Breathing is important for those with Scoliosis.  That's not to say it isn't without merit for anyone else, of course.  But breathing in a conscious, specific manner may add years to scoliosic lives.

I spent a bit of time of this subject in an earlier post, outlining "rotational breathing".  But since then I have been given some different images to try out, and have also had a year or so of practising.

Every activity I do it seems requires me to breathe in a conscious, specific manner that's different from all the other conscious, specific manners.  It's not just as simple as 'in out and forget it'.  In my singing classes I am told to breathe in so that my diaphragm extends down into my belly.  In choir (especially for the high notes!)  I add extra air to expand my lungs, which then are kept firm on the slow exhale until after the diaphragm is back under my lungs.  In yoga it is all about breathing into the belly, making a "Buddha belly".  In pilates it's about expanding the rib cage, back and sides too (i.e., lateral breathing), on each inhale through the nose, then exhaling out through the mouth with the effort of whatever exercise I happen to be doing.  For running and race walking and cycling, it's about keeping the chest fairly upright and open and breathing regularly. And for swimming it's about regulating the exhalation so that I don't run out of air. For me it is anyway.  I am the first to admit I am not a competitive swimmer!

But breathing for scoliosis requires another mental image, one that is very specific to each individual curve.  The best way to do this is in "puppy pose":

Get on your hands and knees.  Stretch your hands forward so that your torso is on a long angle, with your butt up over your heels at a 90 degree angle.

Start by squeezing out all the air in your lungs as if you are wringing a wet towel dry.  As you take a long, slow breath in, focus that breath into your concavity, the collapsed part of your back or side.  Feel the breath push that part of your body out as far as you can push it.

As you exhale the image becomes that of a spiral. Imagine the air leaving your concavity, then swirling across to the other side of your back, spiraling from your "hump" down and around to the front of your chest and out your mouth. 

As you breathe in in this way you are stretching the muscles that are not stretched enough on your concave side.  Then you are sending your breathe forward and out, depressing the overstretched high side of your back, the "hump" down and forward.

The best thing to have is a strong good friend who will stand over or behind you as you sit in puppy pose, tap or touch you on your collapsed side as you breathe into it. then as you breathe out they press hard down and forward on your other side.  This helps with the imagery, making the desired breath direction really felt. But it also helps on the exhalation to help those muscles that are overstretched to work differently.  It might look easy, but it's really not - you need to work hard to isolate specific muscles and then press down with your arms as you breathe the spiral of air out.
puppy pose from above
As habitual activity continues to promote its effects on the muscles being worked, doing 10-15 minutes of breath work every day will eventually work some muscles differently and make a positive difference to your body shape.  And this can actually make a life or death difference!

As you age your collapsed side becomes more collapsed and the twisted side becomes more humpy and twisted.  Depending on your individual curve that means that your ribcage might twist around so much that your ribs squeeze your heart, resulting in a heart attack, or your ribs might puncture a lung. 

Regular breathing exercises will work to prevent that from happening by keeping the lungs free and open, and the muscles around them strong enough to resist the pull of gravity.  And who can resist sitting in puppy pose for a quarter of an hour!

Saturday, November 8, 2014

scoliosis en pointe

I recently read of last month's announced retirement of prima ballerina Wendy Whelan from the New York City Ballet Company.  Not that she will retire from dancing.  After all, she's only 47. 
this is what 47 looks like - to only one woman on this earth!
In July of this year 2014, a very good friend of mine in London got tickets for us to see La Wendy at Covent Garden, dancing in a series of pas de deux with four different choreographers.  At one point, I remember her bending forward for a nano-second and was struck by the sight of one shoulder bone raised higher than the other.  This registered to me and I thought "I wonder.....nah! It's just me being hyper-sensitive."  That's because it's something that I have, and other scoliosis sufferers as well.  When we bend forward one side of our backs is higher than the other. 

However, upon reading the program afterwards I found out that Wendy Whelan does indeed have scoliosis.  How did I not know this???

Apparently she found out at 12 years old that she had severe scoliosis, and at that age thought she now had a name for a disease that was causing the leg pain she had been feeling.  She was put into a heavy body brace, but oddly enough was told to continue with her ballet classes as a way to strengthen her muscles. Having already having had several years of ballet lessons was a plus, as she already had learned how to carry an uneven body, to adapt, to develop keen balance, even shoulders, strong leg muscles, stable pelvises (or is it pelvi?).  To give the appearance of a long, straight back. 

it is oh so faint but you can see a slight curve to Wendy's back here
I wonder if this is one of the reasons my own scoliosis wasn't detected until I was 19.  All those ballet and modern jazz classes - 13 years worth by then!  Maybe I had just learned how to compensate, how to intrinsically know when my head was off centre or one shoulder or hip was too high, and had become too good at hiding my imbalance. It was only when I bent forward in front of my mother that it was noticed.

Wendy Whelan has referred to the scoliosis treatment she went through as a teen as "the medieval torture chamber", with stretching machines as well as her rigid brace and a series of demanding exercises in a ballet regimen that was her only escape from the brace itself, as well as massage, acupuncture, and hot baths.  One week a month, she had to go to the hospital and spend 20 hours a day in traction. Then she'd get plastered up in her body cast again and sent back home to live a "normal" life.

Lots of ballet mad young girls are now being taught the single most important lesson all we twisted sisters and brothers need to learn - how to do simple, deep breathing exercises that get our diaphragms moving up and down and our ribcages expanding with a full inhale through the nose and exhale out the mouth. Preferably at the beginning of each day, when the spine can find centre more easily. Breathing for scoliosis is now second nature to me and my body definitely feels looser than the days when I forget or can't make the time.

Let me reiterate: The best thing in the world to do each am is to rise, brush your teeth, wash your face, drink a glass of water and do breathing exercises - about 10-15 minutes should do it.

Marika Molnar, founder of New York's Westside Dance Physical Therapy and director of physical therapy at the New York City Ballet says she knows loads of professional dancers with scoliosis and doesn't see it per se as a problem. Of course having a twisted spine means a dancer has to have an acute body awareness and a good eye (in the mirror) and sense (when not in a mirror) to correct problems that arise when one seeks the bodily perfection of a ballerina.
La belle Wendy is refreshingly open about her scoliosis and has become a bit of a leader to those of us who always thought things like professional dancing was out of the question.  She gives credit for her current strength to all those years of training and going to class in that horrid heavy plaster cast.  Braces are much softer now of course.  It's still an archaic and dubiously successful form of treatment, but at least its stigmatized and helpless sufferers are slightly more comfortable. (I am saying this with a acidic drip of irony by the way)

Huge kudos to Wendy for sticking it out.  Having a positive attitude of course is huge. When she was student at the School of American Ballet, she was encouraged to look up to the then principal dancer at the New York City Ballet, Heather Watts, who also had scoliosis patient.  Oh how lucky it is to find a real live hero or heroine at the right time and place!  It must have been a enormous lift to the spirits to see someone with the same body issue go on and succeed in such a demanding and public profession. Wendy knows that she has certain strengths on certain sides that are particularly visible to her because of her scoliosis. "I'm always having to pull my right shoulder back, for example, especially when I'm turning. It curves to the front and I have to really open it up."

When asked about her body's eccentricities she replied, "I think my scoliosis gives me character--it adds something to the way I move. And even when I do feel the crookedness in my spine at my age, I don't let it bother me--it's just part of who I am."  And who she is is a 47 year old dancer with the body of a 20 year old - and a 20 year old professional dancer at that - who both deals with and embraces her scoliosis. What she is is a hugely successful ballerina and an inspiration to young dancers and would-be dancers who also have scoliosis.

Brava!